Friday, September 28, 2007

A little thing called Anger.....

Hebrews 12:14 "Work at living in peace with everyone and work at living a holy life, for those who are not holy will not see the Lord" (NLT)

Right now, I am not seeing the Lord. I am not keeping my heart and thoughts focused on Him.

I hate it.

I can literally feel the difference in almost every aspect of my life.
I have to let go of my anger and frustrations. They are getting the best of me.
A lot of it has to do with my "temporary" job. I won't even get into the whole story, but I feel like the job and the people are sucking every ounce of goodness out of me. It leaves me frustrated, exhausted and angry at the end of the day. For some reason, I cannot let it go. I take it out on Keith when I get home.

Proverbs 29:11 "Fools vent their anger, but the wise quietly hold back". (NLT)

I don't like being angry all the time. I don't want negative emotions to control me, but I have been allowing it.
I'm sick of it.

I'm taking back control.
I'm re-focusing.

The only way I know how to do this is by turning to the Bible.
I've been looking up some verses. Some are new to me, some are not.

One of the verses, I memorized some time ago.
James 1:19 "You must be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to get angry"
I know this verse. Why I choose to not live by it is beyond me. It is so true. If only I would just stop, remember this verse and say a lil prayer. I am the opposite of this verse. I am not quick to listen (I interrupt), I speak quickly (and without thinking) and I am quick to anger (one thing can just set me off).
I have to arm myself with this truth, or when I am in battle against anger, the anger will win.

Ecclesiastes 7:9 says "Control your temper, for anger labels you a fool".
I don't want to be a fool. I don't want to be angry.

I'm handing it over to God. I'm done with anger.


Sarah said...

Isn't it so nice to know that we have a forgiving Lord?

You've done a good thing just by opening up your Bible.

I'm praying for ya.

Alexis Jacobs said...

I am so proud at the steps you are taking. I pray that you can find some hope and some peace during this time. ((hugs))

Karen said...

I'm feeling a bit guilty...I'm very cynical (as we all know) and very verbal (as we all know) and I work with you all day. I may not be very good for you but just know have been nothing but a BLESSING for me.

lil ole' me..... said...

Karen, DO NOT feel guilty. Absolutely no need for you to!
I would have lost my mind at work without you. My anger is not caused by you, or increased by you. Didn't mean for you to think that at all!!! I can't stress this enough.
It is completely a personal thing and I have to let it go.