Thursday, August 28, 2008

Transition....

A few days ago I posted about being an official SAHM.

I know that many of my fellow bloggers are SAHM. I have to give you the credit and respect you deserve.

In twelve weeks, it has been harder than any other job I've held.
Don't get me wrong, in twelve weeks, it has also been more rewarding than any other job I've held.
But, that doesn't make the difficult times disappear. It does, however, make them more bearable.

Today was a particularly difficult day. Chloe was just "off". She wasn't eating well, wasn't napping well and she was fussy in the morning and early afternoon. Typically she is fussy in the evening. Of course, this happened on what I call "Keith's long day", which means he leaves for work at 7:00am and gets home from work around 7:30pm. 7:30pm couldn't come fast enough today.

I have to admit, today I wondered if I was crazy for quitting my job and deciding to stay home with Chloe. But, once the cries stopped and the smiles appeared, I knew I made the right decision.
My husband only confirmed that for me when he got home. He is unbelievably supportive and said he was proud of me and what I chose to do for our family. He told me that Chloe will appreciate me being home with her so much and he appreciates it too.

I know those things, deep down. They were just buried a lil bit deeper today.....
Tomorrow is a new day and I'm looking forward to spending it at home, with my daughter.

7 comments:

R.A.M. head on! said...

I understand that all completely!!! I think it is so normal to feel like that, I think you are sopposed to feel like that to balance everything out! When ever you are having a bad time, don't hesitate to call me, it always helps to talk! Your doing great, keep up the good work.

Louise said...

I fully agree being a SAHM is the hardest thing to do! Especially after my day today and its only half over,yikes!
There are also SO many rewarding times too that during the hard days it is important to remember what our purpose is of staying at home with them. You are doing awesome I am sure!
Hugs to yoU!!!

Lani ~ The Wooden Porch said...

Welcome to the world of staying at home! It isn't always easy (usually never easy actually), but this is time that you would've never been able to go back and recapture.

You could always come over and hang out at my place! :-)

Anonymous said...

I'm so proud of you Corie, your sacrifice is an immeasureable blessing to Chloe. Keep your head held high and your spirits higher.........know that I'm just a phone call away. I'll always be there to support, cheer, listen, and comfort you all of the way. Love Trace

Erin said...

You are doing an awesome job and even though it's often the hardest job in the world, it's the most rewarding! You will never regret the decision.

Anonymous said...

happy birhtday!!!!!! i wish i had some advice about baby, but i don't.... all i can say is that i'm here if ever you need a day @ the gardens or for coffee or something!! i'll make time if you need me :) you are an AMAZING mom! but i'm always happy to hold chole if you need a break! oh, and i babysit for mommy and daddy too if you guys ever need a night out!! i'm a great baby holder :) hope you had a great day today!!

Beth said...

Hun, this is the longest I ever got to stay home and I wish I'd been able to with my other two sons. Pickle is alot more secure than his brothers.

I nearly went crazy that first month or so. Pickle was only 9 months old when we moved here. so I feel your conflict...but it gets so much better.