Wednesday, January 10, 2007


Lately I have been in a "funk". I can't seem to get myself out of it. I don't know exactly what is wrong or even if there is anything wrong. I am just kinda "blah". Who knows, maybe it is SAD (seasonal affect disorder).
What I do know is that I am ready for it to end.

I don't even know if I can explain it. I am very blah about my job right now. I feel pressure (from no one but myself) to make a decision about whether or not to go back to school. The teacher idea is very appealing to me. But, honestly, I can't imagine going back to school. Of course, how else would I become a teacher? School would be a must-do. And, I think the longer I wait, the less likely I will be to go. So, the job thing may be a bit responsible for my funk.

Everything else in my life is going really well. I really don't have anything to complain about but this "funk". Does anyone else relate to this? I don't think Keith does. He is the most easygoing, laid back person I have ever met. He just doesn't let himself stay in a bad or "funky" mood. I, on the other hand, have a very hard time "talking" myself out of my "funks".

I really think it might be the winter (if you can call this winter) weather. Let's blame it on the weather. I am going to have to look up symptoms for SAD. And, after I google SAD, I should look into Master's programs for next semester......

Ah, let's end this post with a well needed quote....
"Dreams are necessary to life" ~Anais Nin
(why does it seem like I am scared to make my dreams become reality?.... never mind, I know why- it is that stinkin' fear)

1 comment:

Koob said...

i know it seems daunting with deciding what you want to do forever, but in reality i think there is a very small percentage of people who are able to do what they truely love. or maybe its just the thought of thinking about doing anything for the rest of our working lives. how about retirement, that has a good ring to it. love ya kid, dont worry you'll figure it out.